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Going Too Fast
This is why it’s important to have good brakes (or a smart driver)
My desk asked where I’ve been lately.
I just sat down for the first time in a while, with a White Claw and an apple, no less.
It made sense to me. More the White Claw than the apple. I don’t eat a ton of those.
But maybe it’s a symbol of where I’ve been lately. All around — both in the physical realm and my own personal world.
My mind certainly floats quite a bit. I guess a lot of people’s do. It’s hard to keep us together.
A past version of myself spent a lot of time evaluating how things were going in my life. Most of the time, I was judging myself with how I think I should be rather than how the world sees me fit.
Do we ever really know where we’re going — or why we’re going there? We’re just making things up, based on one thing or another. There’s nothing concrete about who we are, who we should be, and why any of that is the case.
I’d write for a few hours, go to my nearby park, walk around for a little bit, and feel like I figured something out.
But I never did. I told myself why it was best I didn’t get with that girl; it was all a cope. I never really thought any of that. I just didn’t want to feel…
